Hi, I’m Becky, an artist and writer based in Derbyshire. I write about my life in what I hope is an honest and open way. I write about mental health, autism, sobriety and simply trying to find my way in this world. Please subscribe to support my work and to read more of my posts.
Hi,
How are you?
This letter started off very different. I was going to talk all about how it was almost Yule and the light was going to begin to return.
That is all true - it will be Yule on December 21st/22nd, which marks the start of Winter, officially, and the days getting lighter once again.
It was a nice bit of writing, well researched, but it was all a bit twee and not really my truth.
My truth is that I am tired. And, as I write, full of cold and a really horrible ear infection.
Right now, I couldn’t give a rat's ass that the light is going to start returning because we still have all of Winter to get through.
And I am already tired of the overcast skies, the rain and the freezing cold days. I am tired of feeling like I need to like this time of year and look forward to going outside even when it’s absolutely pissing it down with rain. I am tired of having to wear three layers on top and bottom. I am tired of having to wear gloves whilst I type to try and prevent chilblains. I am tired of having cold feet and no energy.
I am tired.
I know I am privileged in that I have a roof over my head and enough clothes to wear three layers and I do desperately try and stay grateful but somedays it is harder than others. So, instead of sending you a bunch of ratty, angry letters I am going to take a break until 2024 arrives.
If you celebrate Yule and Christmas, I hope you have the most wonderful time, filled with love, magick and light.
Either way, have the most wonderful week.
Take care of yourself.
Love,
Becky
🖤✨🌈
P.S I know this was a little bit of a Negative Nelly letter (I do say in my bio that I’m always honest!) so here is a link to the last post of 2023 by
. It is so full of light and I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. Thank you, Jane. 🖤
Thank you so much for the shout-out! Totally love, respect and admire your authenticity as always, Becky. Hope you get the rest you need over the break, and looking forward to reading more from you on your return 💖
This year has been so much. I'm glad you are deciding to rest!